Nothing

I've always wanted to believe

believe in magic

believe in people

believe in God

I've never been able to believe

in anything

nothing has ever felt real to me

which is maybe why time

seems to slip past my notice

so very quickly

nothing has ever felt important

except maybe loss

nothing has ever 

really 

mattered...

because of this

everything

matters

and

I am 

free

to live each moment

as though

it's the only 

true thing

to be true to myself

as though

my self 

is all I have

I may cease to exist at any second

and so every second

is more important than the last

and I won't waste any of them.