Wednesday, January 10, 2018
Tuesday, January 9, 2018
Rain Dance
In a winter storm
everything looks so
clean
even the sun
can't help but take a peek,
and watch the droplets sparkle.
Monday, January 8, 2018
Sunday, January 7, 2018
Tap Out
it isn't fair.
all I've ever asked for
is quiet
dim lighting
simple flavors
a couple good friends
maybe something of a family
the only thing
I've ever wanted
is peace
but every day
(surrounded by garrish noise,
all these colors crammed together,
all this bitter, scalding shit I'm forced to swallow,
all these people I'm supposed to want to impress,
everything adding up to an audience,
betting against me,
waiting for me to tap out)
I wake up fighting.
I am not a fighter
I am tired
and it isn't fair
but
tapping out...
I am no coward,
and I know a few people
who bet on me
so
I fight.
Friday, January 5, 2018
Rx
Maybe,
I need a pill
to silence the voices
and help my heart beat steady
and let my mind race only against itself
instead of the whole world
maybe there would be
peace in my mind
for the first time
if I took a pill.
Maybe,
I take the pill
and my heartbeat becomes curcuitry
and these words that flow
from my veins to the page
lay still
and I forget how the sunlight feels
on my skin after stepping
out of the darkness
I've come to respect...
Maybe
I need a pill...
but there's a chance
that this heart
falls silent
either
way.
Thursday, January 4, 2018
Wednesday, January 3, 2018
Maybe
Maybe
the smile is real
maybe
the laugh isn't forced,
but maybe that laughter
is in the only thing
keeping the
breakdown
at bay,
maybe
the smile
is all she has.